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Name: Megan Joelle
Birthday: 8/8/1984
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Sunday, July 22, 2007

Im going to Yakushima this weekend!! The island of the ancient cedars!!


Friday, July 20, 2007

 I went to Hiroshima this weekend. While visiting the peace museum, I was very ambivalent (I just learned the real meaning of this word) for the most part. It was strange to be able to empathize with the Japanese victims in a more profound way having lived here for a year but also still feel a guilt that comes from being a member of the perpetrating country. Visiting the site of the detonation and seeing the one building that they left standing is entirely surreal. It is like finding an arrowhead in your backyard and realizing that you are only a member in a long train of human beings. And it is also a profound reminder of destruction. The A-bomb was an astounding thing. It completely destroyed everything for kilometers, and so fast. It makes visiting the museum very different than visiting the German death camps. There are so many pictures and emotional stories to be told from the concentration camps because the deaths were long in coming and the destruction was bloody rather than absolute. In Hiroshima, there was no one to take pictures and far fewer stories to be written. 140,000 people died within a few days. Most of them were kids who had been brought in to do destruction work as a precaution for the fire-bombing that was common at the time. A large percentage of the people at the epicenter of the blast were junior-high kids.
 
War at this time in human history seems so removed from its roots of fighting for resources. It is now a product of so much more than base needs. It is brought on by pride and fear- fear more than anything I think. And its much too big. Before, there were rules and battlefields. Now there is only mass destruction and terror tactics. This world is not too much for us- it is too small for us. And there are too many people for me to comprehend. I want to be filled with love- but there is so much loving to do- where do I start- how do I start- where is my love needed.

 
I had my last day with students today. I gave a speech in Japanese. I choked up once. The kids gave me letters- and in some way- they provided a reassurance for my being here. I love these kids- and for some of them- it meant a lot to be able to make letters for me.


Tuesday, June 12, 2007

And the intervals of my writing get wider and wider...

I just finished reading Brave New World. A fascinating book, so much better than I thought that it would be. I had pictures of The Giver in my head when I kept returning BNW to the bookshelf again and again to be waded through later. But it brings up some profound questions. We bleeding hearts, social compassionates, NPO types are always wanting to meet the needs of the people. To give them food, end their wars, keep them warm and safe. We want their happiness, and we struggle to determine what that means. But Aldous Huxley shows us what that means- his book is called a dystopian novel, but I think its really a utopia. A genuine utopia. A happy society is one where needs are met. Contentment comes from community, from purpose. But what if everybody really had those things? Wouldn't it truly mean the end of struggle, the end of excitement, the end of mystery, the end of desire and love. And how much do we really want to abandon those things? Just a bit? Just until people aren't hungry and naked anymore? Just until everyone can read? Just until everyone has a community to which they belong? If God's or the Universe's final purpose is community and sated desires, do we really want to be a part of that purpose? Can the real, modern human really appreciate the wonderful, feely existence of a happy world? Do our present moments of elation really need our world's wars, famines, and rapes? Do your moments of joy need your brother's moments of pain?

I practiced Zazen meditation at a monastery this weekend. I found that I am too western for eastern meditation. The whole point is to exist peaceful and without imposition in the present moment. But if I sit for thirty minutes in a position that causes my hips to start aching at 15 minutes, I want to have come to some important conclusions by the end of my half an hour. I am far too western.

I also went to an art show this weekend, and I found what I think is my new favorite artist. I have never enjoyed a group of paintings more. I will post a couple here, but the artist uses so much texture that this medium doesn't really do his works justice. His name is Tchinai.

Tchinai, Liseron              Tchinai, Kabuku I

 

                Tchinai, Feux d'artifices II

 

 

 

 


Tuesday, May 08, 2007

I have never had so much free time on my hands. I dont study Japanese the way that I should, but even if I did, I would still have hours of free time every day. I think I may go crazy. It is so lonely to be this free and have no one to share it with face to face. Any ideas of what to do with all of this time??


Thursday, April 26, 2007

I am moving to Seattle in August, and Ruth is coming too!! We are so excited!! We will find new jobs and live together. WoooHoooooo!!!!!



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